I know, sounds a bit strange, right? But I did. I missed an opportunity to spend some one on one time with Him.
I woke up at 4:30 AM, and instead of grabbing my journal and my Bible, I tossed back and forth for a solid twenty minutes, knowing full well that if I fell back to sleep at that point, I would be exhausted when my alarm went off in two hours.
But I was feeling guilty and ashamed. My heart was hurting, and I just wanted to sleep. And so I eventually fell back to sleep, exhaustion covering me when my alarm went off two hours later.
Usually, I have music playing, or I’m talking to God, or I’m upset with the drivers in front of me on my way to work. But this morning was unusually quiet (I wasn’t joking when I said I would be tired!).
On my last stop-light before pulling into work, I heard a whisper, “Why do you think I gave you the word, “Pursue?”
And I smiled.
Smiled because a question I had asked Him yesterday, He was answering today. (And for all my girls out there who went through The Quest with me, He really does answer most of our questions with questions Himself!)
Smiled because even though I knew I had missed an appointment with Him that morning, He still spoke to me.
Smiled because the guilt and shame that I was feeling, wasn’t what He wanted me to feel.
Smiled because His plan for my life was slowly being revealed to my heart, and all I wanted to do was jump for joy!
And so, I want to encourage you today. It doesn’t matter if you’re feeling guilty, ashamed, angry, hurt- HE WANTS TO TALK TO YOU.
He wants to talk to us.
That’s the thing about this relentless pursuit of Jesus. When we are all in, He is all in. He is going to find a way to talk to us, even if it means waking us up at 4:30 in the morning. Even if we ignore His first attempt, His second attempt, His third attempt.
He relentlessly pursues us, and that’s that.
Now doesn’t that put a smile on your face?
*first published on my faith blog*